There is a saying, “two steps forward and one step back” that gets used a lot and is always used in a negative way. But maybe it is not that bad. Maybe that step back is needed so that you don’t miss something, so that something is not left undone or forgotten along the way. Today I had caught up with all of the editing and lay outs of recent photo shoots and started scheduling and getting more photo shoots set up to keep moving forward with “the book.” But after doing all of that I took a step back, and not one that was negative or a bad thing; but a step back to look and see what has been started by Sarah but not yet finished.
See, Sarah had some photo shoots done before she passed away that had not been edited and put in the book, and they were locked away in her computer that was unlocked only a few months ago and pasted on to me from her (and my) brother. I had let them sit on my hard drive while I finished the photo shoots and editing of what I had already in the works and to be honest when I was ready to go back; to go back to memories of a much better time. So today with it being my day off and one that was not the best of weather I decided to start working backwards. To start the editing process of photo shoots Sarah had done.
It was like cracking open a vault; a vault with photos of days, times, and places that were the best of days and the brightest of day. I am not going to lie, I spend time just looking at these photos remembering every moment of those days, what we laugh about, what we talked about, the smiles we shared and the time we had with the different couples we got to spend time with. It was an amazing moment to have all of these images bring back so many different memories. Then I just sat there at my small desk with my old laptop marveling at how incredible her photography was. How she had this unique eye for her art. I sat longer wondering how I could even edit these photos, how could I even pick and choose what would make it in the book and what would not. I did not know how I could do it. So like always when I’m stuck I make a cup of coffee, think about Sarah and what she would have said, done and wanted; took a deep breath and start.
So today I started working backwards. And it’s a good thing. No, it’s a great thing! It is a reminder of why I am doing this; it’s a reminder of how excited she was for this project, how excited I was for her. It’s a great way to remember Sarah and all of these amazing adventures we had and all of the wonderful people I have gotten to know on the way to finishing this book and the many more people I will get to meet and spend time with while finishing this book.
I am so excited for you all to see this book, these fantastic photographs Sarah took and for you all to share in the excitement and love that Sarah and I felt while making it. The road to finishing is still extremely long, but one worth traveling.
Thank you for reading.